It's strange really. For years I was wishing that I could grow up, for things to change and for me to be given the independence that I longed for for so long. My mum used to tell me to appreciate my life for everyday and never wish it away- I'm starting to wish I listened.
It seems like I just woke up one day to a whole different life and I really have to learn to stand on my own two feet... but this is in no way a bad thing, because at the moment my life is going exactly where I want it to- I just wish I could take a back seat for a few days just to be able to appreciate what I have now.
Sunday 8 February 2009
Thursday 5 February 2009
One Of Those Moments
I'm a prime example of one of those totally irrational people who can have a fantastic day and then one thing happens and they go off the rail.
Today, I felt great! I found out I got into my favourite university which was something that was really playing on my mind and know I know it's a relief and it was good news too. But, then the flipping laptop spellcheck was playing up- and it just annoyed me so much.
I blame technology- oh yeah it has it advantages but really, when you think about how intelligent the person who invented it must have been. So how can the average person understand it when something goes wrong? It can get so annoying- especially when you have so much else to do, and so much more on your mind.
Sorry, I felt like having a bit of a rant. :-)
Today, I felt great! I found out I got into my favourite university which was something that was really playing on my mind and know I know it's a relief and it was good news too. But, then the flipping laptop spellcheck was playing up- and it just annoyed me so much.
I blame technology- oh yeah it has it advantages but really, when you think about how intelligent the person who invented it must have been. So how can the average person understand it when something goes wrong? It can get so annoying- especially when you have so much else to do, and so much more on your mind.
Sorry, I felt like having a bit of a rant. :-)
Wednesday 4 February 2009
Strange Ways The Heart Works
There's one thing that has always confused me... people who cheat. I just can't get my head around the whole concept. If you care about someone enough to be with them, then they should be good enough to be all you need. If they are not good enough to be the only person in your life, then obviously they're not the one for you and you shouldn't be with them in the first place. Cheating can hurt so many people. I wouldn't even want to be the one with that pain on my conscience.
Tuesday 3 February 2009
Where do I start?
The last two days have been manic!
I ended up having to force myself through the snow to get to the train station to make it half way up the country for an interview- which, to put it nicely, didn't go too well.
It gets you thinking, I mean I'm 17 and I'm put under so much pressure to do well- whether that's someone else putting me under it or me almost forcing it on myself (which I am quite well known for to be honest) I don't know. There are so many options and so much responsibility I have to be working out for myself at the moment, that's what I keep telling myself- but I keep forgetting that I'm a college student, and there's no point in me even thinking about University if I don't do well in college.
So what am I worrying about now? My mind is filled with so much confusion- and as hard as it is for me to say it, I just need to calm down a bit... Yeah like that's gonna happen.
I ended up having to force myself through the snow to get to the train station to make it half way up the country for an interview- which, to put it nicely, didn't go too well.
It gets you thinking, I mean I'm 17 and I'm put under so much pressure to do well- whether that's someone else putting me under it or me almost forcing it on myself (which I am quite well known for to be honest) I don't know. There are so many options and so much responsibility I have to be working out for myself at the moment, that's what I keep telling myself- but I keep forgetting that I'm a college student, and there's no point in me even thinking about University if I don't do well in college.
So what am I worrying about now? My mind is filled with so much confusion- and as hard as it is for me to say it, I just need to calm down a bit... Yeah like that's gonna happen.
Monday 2 February 2009
Snow Day :-)
It's a snow day. It's beautiful outside, but it's a shame in a sense because it seems that the only reasonably warm place is in my bed! It's strange, you get blinded by the beauty of what it looks like- just a completely blank canvas, it makes you feel like you can do anything and achieve anything in life.
Then when you think about it, pratically all it does is prevent life from moving on, everything stops and the pace slows. It can have a different effect on people I suppose, for some it's just nice to ecsape their hostile life, yet, for others it's a barrier which stops them from doing what they need to do.
I don't know how I feel about the snow at the moment. There hasn't been a beautiful white layer like this in Essex since I was a child, so it's makes me happy- takes me back to a time when there was nothing to worry about. Then again, when I bring myself back to the present day it's caused me to be unable to get on with so much I should be doing... College was cancelled, and to be fair I only had one lesson today but it's still my education and I need to do well becuase I want to get into Uni. Speaking of which I have an interview tomorrow for univeristy, which I am rather nervous about- I really want to get into this one.
Then when you think about it, pratically all it does is prevent life from moving on, everything stops and the pace slows. It can have a different effect on people I suppose, for some it's just nice to ecsape their hostile life, yet, for others it's a barrier which stops them from doing what they need to do.
I don't know how I feel about the snow at the moment. There hasn't been a beautiful white layer like this in Essex since I was a child, so it's makes me happy- takes me back to a time when there was nothing to worry about. Then again, when I bring myself back to the present day it's caused me to be unable to get on with so much I should be doing... College was cancelled, and to be fair I only had one lesson today but it's still my education and I need to do well becuase I want to get into Uni. Speaking of which I have an interview tomorrow for univeristy, which I am rather nervous about- I really want to get into this one.
Sunday 1 February 2009
Getting Started- Who Am I?
I'm Jennie, 17, and trying to find my way in life.
I'm in my last year of college studying; Government & Politics, English Language & Literature and Theatre studies. I'm applying to university and although moving away from home and trying to make it on my own seems like a terrifying prospect- I'm really quite excited. I want to study journalism, I've always enjoyed writing and I love finding out something new everyday, so it just seems like such a good career choice for me. Then again, I suppose that's just one of those things where you just have to wait and see. I'll tell you what though, I'm going to have a good go at trying to make a successful and happy life for myself.
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